Fifty Shades of A

Writing comes naturally to me...at times, I could definitely use the word 'easy' to describe it. I have a passion for poetry. All of my writings allow me to express my feelings in a way that otherwise might be difficult for me. When I put a pen to paper it just flows. I'm blessed with such a gift and that is why I share it....right here for all of you to read, pick apart, or do with what you will.

You know what's not easy? Relationships. Be it with friends, family, co-workers, boyfriends, husbands, even children. Relationships take so much fucking work. It's a constant give and take. I pull you this way, you pull me that way. And if you're lucky, we'll meet in the middle and all will be right in the world. Now when that doesn't happen, and shit doesn't line up than that's where shit really hits the fan.
I'm stubborn. There, I said it...in writing. I attribute that to being a very passionate person. I give with my heart and I fight with my heart. I know no other way. It's just who I am. Let's just say, I like to be right. Who doesn't? Being right is a good feeling. A high so to speak. It puts the entire conversation into perspective....my perspective.Unfortunately relationships just won't work if the other person is always trying to be right. Always trying to prove themselves. There has to be some give. Otherwise it's a losing battle. Plus, we could all use some defeat in our lives. I think it makes you grow as a person. You know, gives you something to learn from. Giving in never means losing when you are dealing with love...it's called compromise. Every relationship depends on it. I won't even begin to touch on the "L" word... That's a whole other blog in it's self.

Trust is a huge part in allowing a relationship to really sail it's course. Without trust you have nothing. Shit, I trust that the dressing room in Ross doesn't have cameras when I'm standing there in my panties trying on clothes. We all have some trust in people.

Respect. Respect is huge with me. Appreciate and understand all that I have given you, because  no matter what it is, it's simply that... I've chosen to share something with you. I really do expect you to respect me unless I've given you a reason not to. What I don't expect is for you to agree. Which leads me back to enjoying being right. I'm always up for a good debate. I love passion in people. It's a beautiful attribute.

Honesty. Is really is the best policy. If you can't be honest with me than I sure as hell know that you are not honest with yourself. The truth is, and always will be a hard thing to swallow. Especially if you are not comfortable with you.

You are where it all begins. I'm learning this. I could give advice all day long. but if I don't work on myself than my words mean nothing. All of the things that we expect out of a relationship we must first square away with ourselves. When we come to terms with who we are, everything else starts to fall in place.

I'm no where near perfect. Neither are any of my relationships. Why? because like I said, they take work. Constant up keep. If you aren't learning from the people around you than you aren't paying attention. Life is a learning process and I'm enjoying every minute of it.
xoxo